Kimberly Van Der Beek Says She Had 5 Miscarriages And One Almost Killed Her

Kimberly Van Der Beek Says She Had 5 Miscarriages And One Almost Killed Her

She revealed that she's had a total of 5 miscarriages, and even shared the names of two sons she lost.

Dawson's Creek star James Van Der Beek,43, and his wife Kimberly, 38, have a big family. The pair are parents to Gwendolyn, 2, Emilia, 4, Annabel Leah, 6, Joshua, 8, and Olivia, 10. Although the family is bigger and stronger than ever, they've been through many heartbreaks of losing their babies. According to PEOPLE,  in a recent Instagram Live session, Kimberly opened up about her pregnancy losses. While she's had 5 of them, two of them were extremely distressing: the first of which happened last fall, and the second this past June — both at 17 weeks along. She also revealed that one of the miscarriages "almost killed" her.



Talking to her followers she shared that she had an intuition before the miscarriages happened. She said, "I was told I was gonna have the [first] miscarriage a few minutes before it happened; I was told I was gonna have to go to the hospital a few minutes before they had to make a decision." Kimberly noted that  "After the fetus came out," she "was told exactly where to bury it" — "in the mama plant," a passion-fruit vine that she had recently procured. "So we have two fetuses in our mama plant, and we named them John and Zachariah," adding that "John and Zachariah are buried in the mama plant" Kimberly also stated that she planned to have an artist create a wood structure wherein the mama plant would be placed underneath the earth "so she could grow up around it." She recounted,  "And the cool thing is I had this whole spiritual awakening that happened and the next day, mama plant had her first flower. It was really wild."



November 17 became a special date for her as she realized that it was the same day she had left the hospital last year after her miscarriage with John, and it also coincided with Zachariah's due date this year. Kimberly has decided to host a blood-donation event on the family's new Texas property this year on the same date: November 17. "That's something that came to me very clearly to do," said Kimberly, who has never shied from talking about the blood transfusions she underwent following her losses. "Nov. 17 for me will be a very important blood-giving day, and if I'm feeling strong, I'll also be giving blood."



Earlier this month she told The Make Down podcast, "I understand that I am very blessed to be able to birth five children. I've also had five miscarriages, two of which were really harsh experiences. It has changed my day-to-day quite a bit, because I'm in very much a healing mode right now." She said the "possibility is there" for kids in the future since she has decided not to use birth control. "It really took me years to rebalance my system after birth control," Kimberly explained, adding, "But I need to feel really good in my body if I'm going to explore [having more kids]. And right now I'm not there."



As we previously reported the family was devastated by the loss of their baby. James had once written that "Miscarriage (a word that needs a replacement - nobody failed to "carry", these things sometimes just happen) is something that people rarely talk about, and often go through in secret. But there needs to be zero shame around it, or around giving yourself the time and space to grieve. We decided to put ourselves out there - not knowing what we’d find - in an effort to chip away at any senseless stigma around this experience and to encourage people who might be going through it to open themselves up to love & support from friends and family when they need it most."

After the miscarriage, he told the rest of his followers about what happened, posting on Instagram: Wrecked. Devastated. In shock. That’s how we’re feeling right now after the soul we thought were going to welcome into our family in April… has taken a short cut to whatever lies beyond this life. We’ve been through this before, but never this late in the pregnancy, and never accompanied by such a scary, horrific threat to @vanderkimberly and her well-being. Grateful that she’s now recovering, but we’ve only just begun unpacking the layers of this one. Thank you to all of our friends and co-workers (and dance partners) who have shown up for us so beautifully during this time.


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